Please help
 

I tried to kill myself 4 years ago. I was found by family and put in hospital. I have not felt this way since. Thought I was strong enough to never go back. Things in my life are very very rough right now. I know I shouldn't be saying that cuz many more people have a lot worse in their lives. I don't know how to get rid the thoughts that are so overwhelming right now. I can't tell doctor or counselor or they will just lock me up. My family is 19 hrs away and my husband left for florida with another woman three weeks ago. I am so sick. Lost 90 pounds cuz I don't eat. I nibble here and there cuz stomach hurts but I keep trying stop telling myself i have eat or its going kill me then i almost soothe myself with that thought. I am so afraid I am not as strong as i once was.

I haven't got the right words right now. Just please stay strong, you are not alone. You can put anything you put your mind to and so you can be as strong as before...

Please think again about seeing the doctor - you never know... It may help and aid you with the strength you need right now?

You are not alone, Kia <3