real ?
 

Am not coping so well at the moment...Voices and thoughts are really bad right now.
The voices are telling me i have to cut off my hand to prove that i am real
Am i real ?
If am not real i can grow another hand they say.
Reality is shifting whats real and whats not ...i can see angels with fire wings and demon dogs
Its 4 am and am wide awake ....Am meant to be going to an AA meetings tomorrow morning at 10.30 am have to wake up at 8.50 am to get ready eat breakfast and go its 4 am now and am not ready to sleep i did sleep at 10 pm til about 2.30 am maybe that is enough sleep i dont know

I have to prove am real ...but it means am only going to have one hand ...i guess i would get use to having one hand after a while

maybe am not real at all

You are real, because I'm real and you're here talking to me. And that means you must be real. Can you eat? Can you drink? If so, then you're definately real. What makes you think that you're not real?

Are you on any medication at the moment? Are you taking it?

Try not to listen to the voices. I know it's easier for me to say, and hard to do, but they are dangerous. They want to hurt you. Don't let them.

Reality is here, with me. The angels and dogs aren't real, it's just the voices messing with your head, trying to trick you and hurt you.

It's six am and we're both still awake. Why can't you sleep? Because of the voices?

Do not cut off your hand. It will not prove you are real. I promise you are real. If you are not sure, what about asking someone with you?

Do not listen to the voices. You ARE real. Don't let them hurt you.

Yes am on meds and i have been taking them but they just make the voices quieter my psych said that they may not make the voices go away all together , my Psych discharged me from the service about a week ago ...
I called the crisis team and they told me to make an emergency appointment with my GP today witch my husband is going to do for me .
Yes i can drink and eat.
I cant sleep because of the voices .

am listening to music trying to drown out the voices at the moment

*offers hugs* is the music helping? you are real hun, you don't need to prove it to anyone, least of all the Voices. i hope it goes ok with the GP, be sure to tell them as much as you can. stay safe and let us know how it goes.

i saw a gp ( not my usual one ) and she got me to go to the mental health team they said it was because am stressed and that i need to cut my time in AA meetings from 7 days to 4 days a week and i need to find something else to do with my time something that wont stress me out

I'm glad that you saw your GP today. Were there any suggestions for how you could find something else to do with your time that won't stress you out?

Like talaiporia said, you are real. You are real because I am real you are talking to me. I couldn't read your post and you couldn't respond and get support if you weren't real. Do you think you don't feel real because of the voices or because of another reason?

Take care.

I do not have words right now, I have read though, and agree with what others have said above.

Do be gentle with yourself.

Roiben x

how do you feel about the advice they gave? well done for seeing the GP. x

I feel like it was a bit rushed like they couldn't be bothered to get to know everything about what was happing i didn't get to say some of the things i wanted to say.
I feel a little better than what i was feeling.

GP appointments can often feel that way. They only actually schedule 5 - 10 minutes per person and my opinion is that that is never enough.
Do you think you could ask for an additional appointment if there were issues you feel were not dealt with in the first one?
Well done for going, and for being honest with them - I know how hard that can be.

Be gentle with yourself.

Roiben x

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do you think cutting down the AA meetings will help?

Yes i think it will help ... the only problem is that i might want to drink more but i have support from my husband and friend

good luck with it. have you gained strength to stay away from alcohol from the meetings you've been to, or had any helpful advice?

At the meetings they tell me to keep coming back and to take it a day at a time
I have numbers of people i can call for support as well but am not so good on the phone and it takes a lot for me to call someone

could you write down a promise to yourself that under such-and-such circumstances you would call someone? it's good to have back ups like that. and taking things one day at a time is good advice, though it can be tricky. it is for me anyway!