Its always one step forward and two steps back.. [could trigger]
 

I've been trying to stop cutting for a while now but its always like I can go for two weeks or more and then I start all over.. this week has been a bad week.
I managed to stop for 8 days, not much but I tried.

Then my sisters boyfriends motor bike / scooter got stolen from our garden when she and him went to bingo, and she asked us if we heard the gates rattle or anything, we didn't and I know she didn't mean to but she implied it was our fault for not hearing the gates. So I relapsed, I tried not to get into much of a state over it and tried using the rubber band method and the ice method but they didn't seem to work. So before I got in the bath yesterday my urges were just too strong, I just cut and cut and cut.

I feel so bad. I promised I'd try to not cut I did.. Urgh I feel like such a dissapointment..

There's not really a point to this post but I just felt like I wanted to share my feelings and hopefully I'm not alone. :notsure:

you promised that you would try not to cut. you tried not to cut. so you haven't broken your promise and don't need to feel ashamed or guilty.

it isn't your fault if you didn't hear the gate. and its likely that your sister would agree with that when she isnt so upset herself and definatley wouldn't want to cause you to feel guilty.

8 days is alot when you're going through a rough and stressful patch.

Thank you for replying.

I guess she kinda understands a bit more or so. We've just heard his bike/scooter has been found by the police.

I guess 8 days is alot, but I know I can go longer, thats why I'm kinda dissapointed..