Always Triggered.. *possibly triggering*
 

As of late, my depression has come back, really hard. It's like nothing seems to matter anymore.. and i feel like such a bother always bugging my friends to help me not stay alone so i cant cut as often.. But after several months of not cutting I've slipped and it's a constant fight against not cutting. and honestly, I'm suicidal.. I can't get Professional help, i don't have the money for it, and i don't want to tell my mother (who could pay for some for me) because she always yells at me and blames me whenever i get like this.. I'm slipping, and I'm scared once I'm home alone I'll go too far and act on my suicidal urges.. every blade I see I only see it as my friend, one to bring me to my temporary happiness

I'm so sorry you're havin such a hard time! I can really relate to much of what you said about the depression, not wanting to bother friends, not havin money for professional help and the lure of the blade. I'm prayin for ya hun!

*hugs* I hope you're alright! I know what you mean... I go through periods of time like that too :/ I'm glad to hear your friends have been able to help you a bit :) There's a start.

I'm not sure if I can give much advice, but, you can always send a PM if you want to talk. You will get through this! Hang in there

*more hugs, and much love*