Am I strange If I like the blood?
 

I don't want to sound crazy, but other poeple ask 'Am I the only one...?'

I like to see the blood from my cuts...the more blood the better I feel.
I like the scars that are left behind, when they heal I feel I need to make more and I know that's the same case for some Si's, maybe all. But does anyone also like to see the blood from a fresh cut like me? If you do, do you have any idea why?

I get where you're coming from. For me, when I'm emotional, seeing the blood calms me, sometimes I completely block my surroundings and just focus on it. Occasionally, just seeing blood can be enough.

Thanks you. It's good to know it's not just me :)

You are far from alone with this.
I crave seeing the blood too.
I won't go into much details as it may trigger & be very graphic, but I do understand how it is when you crave seeing the blood & liking seeing it, etc.
x

not going to go into it either but i love seeing the blood too.

I've posted this very question before. It's normal. From my own experiences and discussions with others, it seems common. For me, it *was* the blood more than anything, I guess we just take comfort in SH for different reasons!

You're definitely not alone. I like seeing blood too.

Thanks for sharing everyone^^

I know what you mean. Seeing the blood does seem to make me feel good sometimes. If I don't think there's enough of it, I feel compelled to do more :/ I don't think you're strange for liking it at all

*hugs* Hope you're doing alright

I find most people who cut like the blood. If they hated the blood they likely wouldn't do it, although blood usually isn't the only reason why people cut.

But I do enjoy the blood. It can help when you feel numb, as it sort of wakes you up to see it drain out. Or just the feeling, and the long stroke, and the knowing I was strong enough to draw it out of me. I can't explain it well enough. I just like the blood.

You are definitely not alone with this. I don't feel like I've achieved anything with cutting unless there is blood. The more blood there is - the better I feel. I know that sounds twisted, but it's true. You are honestly not alone with this <3

It was one of the main reasons I cut.

Yep I like seeing blood too. It makes me feel in control =)

dont have all the answers just my opinion
 

Speaking for myself I like seeing the blood. You asked why well all I can tell you what I believe. Part of it to me has to do with if I see the blood than I am alive. The other part is because I feel nothing and pain at the same time if that makes sense. I also harm when I see my cuts heal. I have to have a constant reminder a constant physical pain. At my worst I am my own worse enemy. I found this ring online and just recieved it the other day. It has a quote by gandhi engraved on it. It says, "Nobody can hurt me without my permission". I loved it and thought it would empower me everytime I looked at it. I am not saying there is no hope out there for self harmers. I am questioning if there is any out there for me. Years of therapy and hospitializations and the dbt program and I haven't stopped. I could repreat word for word the things i've learned over the years about myself and all the training. Coping ha!. It is that I am running from. If I have to cope I have to feel if I have to feel I have to harm to chase it away. I get my therapy from someone who has never so much as harmed and I am suppose to take it as word she knows why she understands she can give me skills. If I am honest I don't even know why. I mean I can tell people it's this or that but how did i become a harmer? The best answer I ever got to that question is from my current therapist. I have borderline personality disorder. That is something that occurs because of severe abuse at a very young age. Age 2 is when a child develops their personality. Mine was disrupted therefore leaving me with the borderline and one of the symptoms is harming. I was told if all I have known is pain I give it to myself. If all i've ever been told is I deserve pain and I am not getting it I give it to myself. I know you wanted the answers about the liking to see blood. The truth is do any of us really understand any of it and if we did would we still do it? We will always have questions and for all of you I pray there will be answers. I have a long journey ahead of me with no answers in the near distance. I am not meaning to be triggering. Harming alone is like a big bomb. Stay safe.:ermm:

Really, you're far from being alone in this. *Hugs* :-)

Like what alot of the other people here have already mentioned, I really enjoy the sight of my own blood when I cut. It really is calming and provides a sort of relief that I can't get from anything else. It also makes me feel more in control, which is a very important thing for me because I'm not in contol of very many parts of my life. Trust me, you are not alone. A very big part of the people who cut like the sight of their own blood. I do too, so you're definatley not all on your own in this.

PM me if you ever need help or just somebody to talk to and give hugs. :-)
xxxx

i like the blood, i have to have the blood in order to feel like i actually did anything.........maybe that makes me weird...oh well

Hey, i get where you are coming from. I've tried other things that don't involve blood but it's not the same. It's a certain feeling to feel the blood running across my arm while also seeing it.

I love it too, always have.
It's so expressive, in a way that I can't be.