i didn't want this..
 

Growing up seeing the ugly cuts on my older cousins arms, i decided then that i was never going to hurt myself. And when it started two years ago, it blind sided me. i wanted to keep my best friend so i just went along with it. one day when we were sluffing in the bathroom, we broke a mirror and used the shattered pieces to cut each other's arms. We did it again the next year, and after that i loved the feeling and i couldn't stop. I've tried to stop cutting more than once in the past year. But i think this time, it's really working. I have support and i'm really getting somewhere. I'm not as depressed anymore and i'm beginning to think optimistically again (((: haha this thread was pretty random... |:

I'm glad that you are feeling a bit better and are getting somewhere with your support. Things can feel a whole lot better with an optimistic outlook and I'm glad you're beginning to harbour it. Hopefully things will get a lot better in the future and you'll lose the hold SI has over you.

Take care.