the urge is so strong (tiggering)
 

to cut rightnow. i really want to ive been holding it off as long as i can. but i dont think i can take it anymore. i feel so close to breaking. i havent cut in like 4 months and ill be dissapointing alot of people. its not for myself. if it was up to me id still be cutting because it helps. alot. i dont like it but i need it. im weird and a failure.

First of all four months is an amazing effort so well done. Is anything in particular making things worse for you right now? Have you tried any distractions? Here is a list of distractions you might find helpful. Keep fighting and remember these urges will pass. Take care
Kat xxx

you aren't weird or a failure, lots of people on here have been in the same position....

and lots of people have gotten through it as well. like Kat said, distractions would be good to try first for a bit. if they aren't working then you could try and talk with someone that you trust, or write out what you're feeling, something like that to try and express it a different way.

thanks I lasted through last night...but i still feel triggered...feels worse than yesterday...ill try both of your advice.

Keep going hun, how are you doing today?

im ok i guess...i gave in i couldnt take it anymore...i cut more than i wanted to because i couldnt stop myself. im the biggest failure ever.