Help? *Trigging SI and Suicide*
 

Please help me. I feel completely alone. I'm not good enough for anyone...I haven't cut in over a year and a half and I can't explain how badly I want to cut right now. I don't want to be here....there's no one in my life it would truly effect if I weren't here. I just can't do it anymore. I can't go through another day. Everyday I feel worse and worse and I just don't wanna know how much deeper I can go. I don't really have anyone to turn to. I'm scared...I want to cut....I don't want to be alive........ *cries* sorry

Its okay hun. I have been there before. It is really rough to get through sometimes. But you can do it! There is always a reason to keep going.

Do you have a pet? A friend? Do you talk to someone on here that asks for your help?

Sometimes it seems really hard to find a reason to get through a night. So get through an hour. If that is hard take it minute by minute.

PM me if you need to talk. Any time. Now or down the road. When ever.

(sometimes I have to make up a reason to get through, because I want to get through, asking for help is a big deal!! Maybe that could be your reason?)

Hey, I know this post isn't recent, but I've been there, I am there. I know it is hard and I know I don't know what is going on in your life, but I know things aren't easy. if you wanna talk to me find me on tumblr :
http://loveacting-music-writing.tumblr.com/

I know how it feels. I felt that way too, but it gets better. It might not seem that way right now, or even happen anyime soon, but one day it will get better.

<3Lira

PS: PM me if you want someone to talk to!
I never really realized what was wrong with suicide until recently, because of these songs.

Why-Rascal flatts
How do you get so lonely- Blaine Larson
The Call-Matt Kennon

*hugs* You're doing amazing! Not cutting in over a hear and a half is absolutely awesome! You've come such a long way :)

You can get through this- don't give in. I know it's hard... I've been there before. Just take it a little bit at a time.

This post was from a few days ago... are you doing any better now? You can always send a message if you want to talk!

*more hugs and much love*

Thanks guys....I'm not really feeling much better...I'm just really overwhelmed...I really wish this was all over

It sounds like you're in a lot of distress right now, sweetie.
Over a year 1/2 without cutting is amazing, really amazing. You should be really proud of yourself. Do you know what is triggering you to what to cut at the moment? Prehaps looking into that might help rid the urge? If you want you can always PM me and I can help you sort through it. I'm always available. :] && you are good enough, even if you don't feel it.
I think you need a 'new' way to express yourself. To help express these feelings you have building up inside you. If you can't do it alone, I'm always here. Take care. <3

I write all the time, and my therapist wanted me to take up drawing (even tho I suck) so try to express myself and stuff like that...but it's just not getting to where I need anymore. Theres this like deep dark ache pulling at me that I can't shake, I can't get it out in writing, drawing, talking...nothing...I don't know what it is and it's really upsetting me. I think that's the main thing that is triggering me to cut, I figure I'll be able to release all that the second I pull that blade across. *sigh* my therapist knows these things...I just can't figure out what's getting at me....part of me is scared that I'm trying to block something out from my memory or something but I don't have the slightest idea what it could be and I don't know if I even wanna know if that is the case.....*cries* I just can't do this much longer