Ive Started SH Again After Being 2 Years Free.
 

I Feel So Depressed And I Cant Talk To Anyone About It. I Dont Know What To Do. I Can Bearly Get Out Of Bed In The Morning. I Havent Eaten In A Week And I Know Im Going To Be To Far Gone Soon. I Was Free For Two Years, Im Not Coming Back This Time, Its Too Much.
I Dont Know What To Do

can you try talking to people on here? or maybe you could start out by writing in a journal for a bit? getting your feelings down so that they don't feel so much like they've got to be hidden. and then work up to talking to someone.

try and eat something, maybe get yourself sorta distracted and start easy. like having a smoothie while you're watching tv, so that you aren't concentrating on the food.... and make sure to keep drinking enough as well.

but you're not too far gone right now..... you can pull yourself out of this before it gets worse

First of all- congratulations on going 2 years! That's absolutely amazing :) Recovery is such a hard thing to accomplish, but we'll all be able to get there someday.

Have you tried distracting yourself? What helps me sometimes is drawing on myself with a red marker. It looks sort of authentic, but doesn't do any harm. I've also heard holding an ice cube to your skin helps too. It'll cause some pain but doesn't do damage.

Please do eat something soon... you really do need to. I like what PastExpiration suggested (the smoothie idea). Or maybe something small and healthy like an apple.

I really hope you're ok! You can always send a PM if you want to talk! You can get through

*hugs and love*