i shouldn't
 

but i want to, i feel the need to, i guess i shouldn't really but i want and need to so much right now

i cant hold it together any longer i am near breaking point i want to i need to but i guess i really shouldn't

do you know what is causing you to feel this unsafe? even though it feels like you need to harm, you don't need to hurt yourself to get through the feelings. what sort of things do you enjoy? you could do one of them for a bit. or find someone to chat with or to tell what is going on and get stuff off your chest.

i just am feeling so overwhelmed with things right now
i did try to draw for awhile but that did not help much at all
i still feel like i want to and need to and i am not sure i can get the feeling of wanting and needing to to pass

Sometimes I find that drawing on myself with a red marker can help. It looks a bit authentic, but doesn't do any harm. I've also heard putting ice cubes against your skin works well for some people. It'll cause some pain, but also doesn't do damage.

I really hope you're alright! PM if you want to talk :)

*hugs*

right here back at this place

i so shouldn't BUT I WANT TO