Am i addicted?
 

It's all i ever think about... its got worse alot worse, my skins itches && i need to SI... I have alot of problems going on and SI makes them better. I have gone from doing it a little to everyday and without it i feel worthless, useless and its harder to get through my day...

I used to want to recover but now i don't, but i am actually scared of destroying myself, it is getting to the point where i wont have any part on my body i havent destroyed =/

How can i convince myself i can stop && get help before its too late?
I am addicted or is just something that will eventually go away on its own..

Sorry I am just really scared of myself right now, but I deserve this and it shouldnt ever go away.

xx

I am trully sorry but... I just need someone to help :( xx

I'm the same way. But if my mom finds out about me doing that again I'll be admitted again. . .
My scars itch alot. I hate it.
Sorry I probably wasn't much help :(

I would say you're addicted because it's so difficult for you to stop. That doesn't mean you can't recover though. If you want to stop, you can. Seeking some kind of help would be a step in the right direction.
One thing that I found helped me decide to stop was thinking about the situation objectively. Imagine that somebody else is in your situation (maybe a friend), and think about what you would tell them. This is one of the things that really made me realize I had a problem and needed help.
Also, don't feel sorry for posting, or feel that you deserve this. This board is here to help you, and you have done absolutely nothing wrong. You have actually done something positive by talking about your feelings c: And nobody deserves to go through this. I know that's a bit of a cliche, but it's true.