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hey there, im new lol, well not really but iv been away awhile and only really just started posting again.

i turned 21 lastyear and i began to panic that i was getting 'older' and was still stuggling like when i was 13.

but there is something different now...i think...i think im really ready to try to change, grow, learn and get better. theres been some tiny but significant change inside me and im finally willing to le go of what needs to be left in the past.

don't get me wrong i am aware that this will be probably the hardest thing i will ever do, but i finally want to stop self harming. really stop, like forever. i want to delve into the depths of my innermost thoughts, immerse my mind in my own soul. figure out how i tick, why i tick and what i can do to change the tempo of the clockworks. learn what i can control, what i can change and learn to accept the rest. i struggle with life more than alotve people i know irl, and thats okay too. im finally willing to forgive myself for being me. to try and like myself....love myself more than anyone else could.

iv recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and while i put little importance on labels, i consider this an important stepping stone in my recovery. it gives me somewhere to start, with processes that have been tried and tested that i may be able to impliment to help myself.

i think the most important conclusion i have come to, is that i am willing to forgive the world for not being perfect. i want to embrace the beauty, endure the dark and come out standing on the other side

and id like to do this with your support, aswell as support all of you on your own journeys, no matter which path they'r on, or how far on that path you are.

sorry for the novel lol
its kaye btw

xoxo

Hi there. You think 21 is getting old? I'm 39! But seriously, age doesn't matter. We are what we are and we do what we do. And as a little old lady that's been self harming since her teens, has been married twice and has a 19 year old daughter, I'm here to offer any help and support I can. xxx

welcome to vets :) agree ^^^ 21 isnt old, lol.
i think its great you are going to really try, and as someone who has been helped a LOT by the people on here I can say you are in a great place to get any support you need.
I'm around most days if you ever wanna chat.
tc x

welcome to vets :D
I am 21, too (and I feel that I'm getting old... but shhh)
We should chat sometime and get to know each other a bit.
PM me if you feel like it.

thanks guys :)

*hands you a panda*

Welcome to Vets :) Like everyone else said....21 isn't old although I know it can seem it sometimes. I'm 22.

*sulks* Can I have a panda too? I know I've been a Vet for a while but like....I still want a panda :(

Welcome to vets.
Ummm..i want one tooooooo
*sulks*

Welcome!

Romp - would a polar bear do instead? I'm out of pandas

*offers polar bear*

~Welcome silentdancer~Your post was quite inspiring! Thanks for sharing!

~Mathew or Toko~Can I have a plushie too, please?

I would personally like a mammut!!!!!

And welcome to vets, Silentdancer. If ninjapenguin becomes too eager he can be soothed with a pair of mittens on strings. Just a friendly tip ;)

My dictionary just informed that it's called a mammoth in english. So yes, give me one of those and you'll be my bestest friend in the whole wide world!!!!!

If I give you a mammoth Kat, what have you got to exchange?

I have an empty coffee jar... It was good coffee too!!!!!

Are you offering me an empty coffee jar in exchange for my awesome mammoth?

Well.....Eeerrrmmm..... Yes, i do believe i am *shifty eyes*

~Lol~Surely, you can do better than that! You must not want this mammoth very badly.

ok.... What if i trade you my immortal soul???? And i'll trown in the coffee jar for good measures :)

Wow! I'dve settled for a plushie trade or some chocolate or somethin, but...ok. You sure you don't wanna reconsider?

Well.... Hmmmmm.... I think i actually already sold it to someone downstairs. How about a fluffy stuffed rabbit?????