Given up
 

I don't think my therapist,,CPN or consultant can do anymore for me , they said I have to want to be helped but i'm still stuck in depression self harm and suicide thoughts. I don't think they can do anymore for me they have days out that they keep inviting me to but I can't leave the house atm which shows I fail at life. They come round and talk to me but I don't know what they can offer me or do for me anymore. I bore them with my constant negative thoughts and low self esteem. The services have been around for years I keep trying to tell them theres nothing they can do for a lost cause like me but they keep trying and are wasting their time.. does anyone else have similar problems?

You don't fail at life, you're struggling. And even though it may not feel like it, you are not beyond help. There is help for the taking, but as they said, you have to want it. I understand how difficult it is to break the cycle of negative thoughts, but even though you're having them, you can let the professionals help you. And then maybe the thoughts won't be as prevalent anymore.

I doubt you bore them. I think that's your depression talking. They probably don't see you as boring at all, I think that's the way you view yourself and it's being projected onto others.