I feel Im at the end of the road
 

I have survived all my life, never lived. I have read 100's of books to try and understand myself and how to change so I can lead a normal life. Clearly I have not followed the steps for I am now at the worst time of my life. I am not ok and I am so afraid to die alone.

Sometimes reading books is not enough, sometimes people need a little input from 'professionals' to push them in the right direction and that does not make them to blame for how they feel or anything like that. Do you have a Doctor or Nurse or anyone you see or could see? What else is going on for you in your life? Has something happened to make things worse now?

*hugs*

Books can be a real asset to recovery and living a happier life, but so can therapy and sometimes medication if its right for you. Have you sought help from any other sources?

inblack- why are you rebooting zombie threads? Posts from weeks or months ago that the OP has never bothered to respond to or boost themselves and then in many cases has not even logged onto the site in weeks or months? I understand making sure people in need have responses but all you are doing in this instance is making generic responses to posts that the OP clearly no longer has much interest in and in doing so you are managing to push down more recent posts by other members.

Why do you care so much?

Heres an idea....leave me alone

Oh, and who are you to say the OP has no interest anymore?

I have gone weeks before still checking back. I go back and see who has the least number of comments and reply.

Anyway....I really don't care about what you have to say

Because I honestly want to know why you are resurrecting zombie threads.

If you want support yourself then post for it. If you are trying to make a point then make it, or if not then answer my question properly and I will let it drop. Simple really.

Shut the hell up

Why are you being so aggressive? I asked you a simple question. I don't appreciate your tone. Apologies to the OP btw in case you check in. inblack, feel free to PM me instead of continuing to hijack the thread if you so prefer.

At the end of the day, you barely post, I know nothing about you. All I know is that you have not offered support to more recent threads and hence I ask you why you are only replying to zombie threads and if there is a point you are trying to make. It is a simple question and a valid one. If you would rather not answer then a simple response to the same effect would surfice, as would a PM.... 'shut the hell up' is hardly either of those.

Do you need support with something yourself?

Yes, I need support in having you not talk to me. Not now, and preferably not ever again