Returning to work
 

Ive just recently got a job. i havent worked for ages and have took 5 years to finished my degree but returning to work seemed the next logical step, cpn and therapist all said it was a good idead, but it feels like a disaster.

They said that they would support me, but they arent, this is more than i have taken on for ages and they have all pissed off, and im very annoyed. part of me enjoys working but i cant cope with it, im exhausted, i spend most of the day at work on the verge of tears, high urges to self harm, i dont know what to do.

keep leaving messages for cpn to ring bac so i can make appointment but she still hasnt.

i dont know what to do, im going backwards so fast and theres no one.
i only made progress under no stress, now at a job 30 hrs a week on a busy high street store at xmas turns me into a complete wreck and i havent got anyone to talk to.

the idea of having to go to work tomorrow terrifies me.

what do i do?

Hey

I've just recently started a new job too after 5 years off ill, have you gone from nothing to 30hrs? I'm doing 12 hrs and am doing permitted work, that means i can work up to 16 hrs and still keep incapacity, incase i go downhill and leave work which means i wouldn't have to re-apply, was this not discussed with you by your therapist? I'm strugglin a lil bit already, already cut at work, stupid i know, i think you have to take it slowly, and i'd keep on phoning your therapist until he/she responds

I can understand how you're feeling. I started work again after being off 5 months and only lasted 3 days as it was full-time and I was on the verge of tears all the time like you! As CherryUK said, if you can work fewer hours to start with, that's probably a wise move. I'm sorry you're not getting the support. Keep ringing them! I hope tomorrow is better than you're expecting. Hug!

yeah ive gone from 0 to 30hrs, its a big change.

supervisor noticed i was struggling so im more on shop floor now than tills all day, which was a nightmare.

its so hard and draining, ive had an ok day today so im trying to be positive, but somedays the idead of having to go to work makes me cry.

working saturday which will be manic but looking forward to sunday off.

thanks for your replies guys :)

Have you tried access to work? Also I'm sure you can get advisors to support you. Rethink might be a good place to look.

There is reed in partnership, and if you are still with a CMHT 'The Shaw Trust' is another one you can be referred to for support in working whilst unwell.

I am gonna PM you xx