scared. *graphic i think*.
 

ok.
on sunday night i. err.. not sure if you would call it a psychotic episode again. but it wasnt pretty. i freaked out pretty bad. and i lost control for a while.
mom has told me that during that time i was screaming that there were bugs on my hands and they wouldnt go away.:crazy: . not sure what was going on there.
but all i know. is now i have. well. i dont even know. there not cuts. they are more like just wounds. or abrassions. i dont know. from scratching my hands the other night with very long and sharp nails.
they are VERY sore. and weepy. on both hands. but worse on the left.
the school says i have to cover up my hands cause its considered si and i have to keep it hidden.
but when i cover them. they get more weepy and sh*t. so im not too sure what to do about that.

im also worried about infection. even though i trying to keep them clean. because they are open and keep rubbing on things. very painful. red. swollen.
im just scared.
help?.

thanks.
anna.

Hey Anna.

About the wounds on your hands, are they all over, or in patches where it would be possible for you to put a dressing on them? I'm not giving professional advice by any means, but them weeping could well be the plasma in your blood that is tending to the wound.

With regards to treating them you should make sure that the wounds are clean which you can do by running it under water. As far as I know you shouldn't use anticeptic because it could damage the tissue and slow down the healing. If you then pat dry the area you can apply a non stick adhesive dressing, which you can get from most shops like boots.

When you can it's probably a good idea to take the dressing off to allow them to scab over faster. Your school asking them to keep it covered, the only thing I can think of are the dressing as mentioned above, but that does depend on the wounds themselves.

Please know that all the advice I gave is not from someone with any professional experience. If you are worried about your hands you can always call the NHS Direct on 0845 4647 or simply pop into your local walk in centre.

Take care and I hope they heal soon.
Chloe xx

I think you should leave them open to the air as much as you can I find with abrasions and scratchy type cuts they will heal better if let out to the air. Only cover when you need to e.g at school. Have you contacted your doctor about the psychotic episodes. Also have you been taking any drugs just that a common side effect of amphetamine use is bugs crawling on your body and such episodes. You could be experiencing too much dopamine in your system. Sorry I can't help other than saying what has worked on me. Hope you feel better soon.

I don't know but it sounds horrible. Hope you are okay! Take care hun!

they mostly cover my whole hand on one side. with a few gaps. and on the other side its just a few patches.
ive run them under water and they just hurt more to do that.
my mom put antiseptic cream on them. :crazy: . dont know if it will make it worse now.

also. im not doing drugs. but i also havent been taking my medication. i started taking it again though.

thanks for any advice given.
xoxo.
anna.

just a suggestions since your school wants them covered but they weep more, due to the trapped moisture, you could take a piece of guaze, 2x2 or 4x4 depending on size of wound, and unfold the guaze into a single layer, cut it at the folds and then tape the single layer in place along the edges. This will keep it covered but because it is in a single layer it will allow more air to flow through and prevent as much moisture from being trapped as possible.

ok.
my hands are healing OK. but i dunno.
its been 2 weeks.
and there is still a lot of healing to go.
they just dont seem to be doing weel.
but they arent infected.
they are also scaring pretty badly right now. and i usually do scar.
but yeah. i want to reduce it. any idea?.

Hands do seem to scar quite badly :(
I would just say moisturise your hands with a cream like Vitamin E, cocoa butter or bio oil - those sort of things can help reduce scars but if your wounds are still open I'd be careful because it might really hurt, or cause them to not heal so quickly.