Depression and sex.
 

I have been "depressive" for about four or five years now. I've been to the GPs twice because of it, and been sent to see two different shrinks about it. They discharged me after six months because I "was improving" and I was kind of stuck in limbo for about a year after that.
I've been "down" for about a month now, and I'm beginning to think that this is the start of something more severe, rather than just a foul mood.

My question is this, how has depression affected (if it has) your sex life, and how have you overcome this? My boyfriend, whilst trying to be understanding, is taking it personally that I have very little interest in sex, and thinks that I don't find him sexually attractive. I do, I just don't have any interest in anything at the moment, sex included.

It may sound a little strange but I have different "kinds" of down.
Sometimes Im just very very clingy and need to be hugged else I feel all out of sorts, and other times I cant bear to be touched.
And I went through a bizarre cycle of having sex-feeling better then feeling even worse after about half an hour O.o

I can still get aroused, and then I get twitchy. But the thought of actually having sex just isn't appealing. It's not just that though. I do love him, and I really want to enjoy having sex. But I can't. It's just not "hitting the spot" so to speak. It's not him, he's done nothing different. It's definately me.

I have moods where I just want to get as far away from him as possible because I know he's going to want to be in contact with me and I just can't do it at that point. But that's a different topic entirely.

****s sake, I'm sick of being crazy.

Uh, i'm yet to find a relationship where my partner understood it and didn't think it was because I didn't find them sexually attractive.
I try to make it as clear as possible, but a lot of people can't understand a relationship without sex -shrug-.
When it gets to the point that I have to just do it for the sake of my relationship I always enjoy it and stuff, it's just finding the effort to start in the first place.
Even then, I'm much much more of a giver than taker, but I dunno if that has anything to do with it or not.
I don't have anything constructive to say, just sayin' yeah, it's pretty common.

I just...we've had issues regarding sex in the past... and I really don't want a repeat of what happened last time (he began sending sexy texts to a girl who had a thing for him because I didn't want to have sex).
He regrets doing it, but it's made me really fearful of this because what if it happens again? We used to have a brilliant sex life, and it's totally gone down the can. I only really do it now when he's so turned on I can't ignore it.