thoughts go from cuttin to drinking.
 

the other day i found a whole bunch of alcohol in my mom's bathroom. we're morman, so she's not suppose to drink....and now that i know she does...i feel like i can to. ive thought about it for a long time.....to just drink all the time instead of cutting so that i dont have to think about anything anymore...im only 15. so drinking isnt a very good thing to be doing, but right now i dont really care anymore....i just dont understand why i want to ALL the time...ive never even drank before...
im confused...and i feel like a bad person for cuttin, and now even more so because of wanting to drink all the time

I feel exactly like you! I'm 15 too and I think about drinking just because I don't want to cut.. I've never gotten drunk, but I want to. I think I'm not gonna start drinking, I hope so, but at the same time it seems like another option..
I don't really have any advice, but PM me anytime if you want to talk.

It can be common to transfer ways of hurting yourself. Even through you may not be cutting, drinking is still damaging your body. It really isn't a good idea to start drinking as it can become addictive. Do you have any professional help?

I think it's fairly common to want to transfer urges from one coping mechanism to another. Even though you can't see the outward affects, drinking can still be very harmful for your body, but it sounds like you already know that. You're not a bad person for cutting hun you just never learnt a healthier coping mechanism *hugs*. Is there someone you can talk to about wanting to drink?
Take care xo

As said above, going from cutting to drinking is just transferring addictions. Although the effects aren't as obvious on the surface, it can damage you more inside. I'm an alcoholic and when I drink, I go through lots of different moods, the last one being a very depressed stage. That then lasts the next day and makes me feel more depressed, particularly if I'm hungover. You don't need the strain of dealing with alcohol. As said above, do you have any professional support? Both cutting and drinking are equally bad coping mechanisms, but I understand how hard it is to learn new ones.

i do have professional help, but they keep avioding me...
they said i need to get in twice a week but i havent been able to get in for 6 weeks, and wont be able to for about another 6.
i dont really think they care about me, so i just wanna give up on getting help...cause no one's really helping.

I tried to drink instead of cut a few times but I just ended up cutting anyways while I was drunk and it was usually worse because I wasn't really in control of what I was doing. So for me it had the opposite effect of what I was trying to achieve...