struggling please help
 

hi everyone, i'm new to forums and not the best person with technology. I'm trying to stop SH, 11 days so far i can't stop thinking about it, i can't sleep, i'm losing my energy to fight this, i want to cry and never stop, anyone there to chat to

i'm sorry you're having a hard time but keep at it. you are stronger than this thing. :)

Thanks, it sucks at the moment

11 days free is more than I ever managed to be.
Stay strong.

some of me thinks whys it worth it to keep putting it off, i know i'm gonna eventually, why put myself through this. my heads so messed up, i go back to work next week afetr a week off and i have no idea how i'm going to do it

One step at a time.
Thats how you can do it.

i find it difficult to look at the progress i've made and instead only look at how much further i've got to go, as well as how rubbish things still are and the hurt i've caused other people along the way. part of me wants to just accept how i am, carry on doing what i'm doing regardless of what everyone would think

Does anyone have any advice, i'm really struggling at work, the 2 people who know in my team are very helpful, but personnel are being less helpful, I feel under so much pressure. It's taking enough from me just getting to work each day let alone getting through the day there. I don't know what to do now, it's not getting any easier

11 days is a great ammount of time , especially when you are struggling so much , try and think " I've done 11 whole day so one more hour/2 hours / day I will be able to do" You should be proud of yourself . I hope my advice doesen't suck too much , baby steps :)

what do you need to do to get through work? Is it difficult to do the work, or is it having to deal with people when you're feeling so bad?

Thanks for your replies. I went 15 days and then had a slip up last night :-(. At work it's putting a brave face on, I work in a school and have to deal with staff and kids all of the time, and if I take time out of lessons I feel bad for the rest of the team.

That's a tough job, I don't know how I'd manage without my own office to hide & cry in if I need to...