just FYI...
 

I'm going out tonight. I'm scared for what I will do. To my self and to others. I have to go, or they will forget me. They are my only company oudside home, exept mom, dad and my one and only friend.
Lina and I have known eachother for 20 years. If we met today we would have nothing incommon. Well... We are friends now anyway. But she has truobles of her own, not as bad as mine - but I have to pretend that they are. Hard work...
Anyway, Tonight I'm going to my studenthouse. They are thanking everyone that have helped with the renovation. I have painted doors. I'm going to drink. Must controle myself! I'm taking 5 kinds of AD now, water water, water!!!

hope yo have a ggo dtime! But because if all the eds, pls be careful of the drinim=king,,,it jsut leads to more mess...
hope yo had fun, let us know
romp

Hope you have a good time
Much love
xxxxx

you deserve a great time sweetie.
*hopes for the best!!!*
much love.
xx

Hav fun hunni...but please be careful.
xxxx
Alyssa

*echos others* CAREFUL WITH THE DRINK, have a good time, mand x

Thank you for your support. I think I drank less than I used to.
I'm drunk though. I cut myself. I went to the ER but the nurse was a bitch, so I ran away on, to the next party. Nothing deep though.

How do you say to a boy: "look, you are cute, but i'm 5 years older than you, I'm drunk, I'm tierd and my arms are bleading, so leave me alone"? I lached on to a pals boyfriend and let him lead me out. Coward!
Why am I cursed with a pretty face? Low self esteam is my greatest problem. Sorry...

Take care hun...watch that cut.
*hugs*
Alyssa

"cursed with a pretty face"? god that sounds stupid. I'm not being an ego lover here.
I'm like the honeytrap without the trap. And the honey is bitter.
Never making sence again.

be careful have fun and remember the people who mind dont matter the the ones who matter dont mind!

Please be safe.