I broke my ankle...just need some comfort...
 

yeah, so last night i was walking up our outside steps and i just slipped and turned my ankle.(NOT ON PURPOSE). i was at the bottom of the steps and tried to crawl up them but couldnt. i yelled for Kelly for about 5 minutes until she heard me.

we tried to get me in the house but couldnt. she had to call an ambulance. there i was lying on the ground in agaony, it was embarrassing. they put an IV in while in the ambulance and gave me pain meds at the ER. the X-Ray showed both tibula and fibula are broken, plus the possibility that ive torn my Achilles tendon.

i woke at 4am and i cant get my pain meds until 8am. i cant go back to sleep. this hurts worse than my arn did. they had to splint it before i see the orthopedic. they told me it was going to hurt but didnt say how bad. i just kept picturing child birth and how nothing could be worse. they kept telling me to scream, curse, whatever i needed to do. i basically just gritted my teeth and let a couple screams out.

i dont know if ive mentioned this or not but theyve discovered that i have "brittle bone disease". there is a professional name for it but its spelled funny etc...its congenital so ive had it since birth but its just now showing symptoms. i hate it. my bones have always been strong and now the littlest things break them. the ER doc said he didnt know if i would have surgery or not but most ankle breaks do. that really sucks.

plus, i keep getting all these pain meds and i know im getting addicted to them but i have to take them or sit here like i am now in misery.

ive been thinking about my father alot. i miss him so much. people say to me "how can you miss him after what he did?" they act as if i shouldnt miss him. no matter what he did, he was the only father i had and i ****ing miss him!!

plus, Keith still isnt talking to me. ive given up on trying with him. he will come around when he's ready.

anyhow...just wanted to post because im a big baby and im awakw all by myself.

thanks.
xxxxxx

Hehe a support thread for your ankle. :P

Hope it mends soon.

Perhaps you are missing the father you never had? Perhaps you are missing all the thngs he didnt give you.?


I thnk its ok to miss him. You are his daughter and he your dad. If you didnt love him your feelings (good or bad) would never have been so strong.

take care brittle bear!!


Matthew xxx

*Leaves lots of hugs* I hope your ankle mends up quickly. Thinking of you xxx

Sounds so horrible. I hope that you get well soon. Take care.

thank you guys :)

ive seen the ortho and hes put me in a cast up to my knee. turns out there are 3 bones broken and not 2. the er doc missed one. he wanted me to be in a wheelchair for 2 weeks due to the fact that my ankle is very unstable and if i slip on crutches or bear any weight on the ankle it will require surgery. we live in a tiny trailer and a wheelchair wont fit, so im stuck with crutches.

im in constant pain. last night the er doc prescribed 10 mg hydrocodone which ive taken today and it barely eases the pain. i didnt notice what strength the ortho prescribed until i had left the office. he only precribed a 5 mg. im freaking out because im literally almost in tears from pain and cant find a comfy position at all. and why would an orthopedic who deals with broken bones everyday give me 5mg with 3 broken bones? i havent filled the prescription yet because im going to call them tomorrow and just simply tell them that 10mg barely gets me by and they could at least give me that for a week or 2.

on the up side, i have a bright orange cast for my fav college football team!! The Tennessee Volunteers!! GO BIG ORANGE!!! just thought id throw that in there :P. i didnt realize how much the color would stand out and how paranoid i am about it now, lol. you couldnt miss me if you tried!!!

well...thats the update.
Sincerely,
"Brittle Bear" :P

Hey, "BIG HUGS".... I am just getting over a broken foot and wasn't allowed to bare weight... I rented a knee walker.. You can probably rent it online and it made life sooo much easier... Just as a suggestion... I hope you heal quick!

*leaves lots of hugs*

I used to teach dancing to a girl with brittle bone syndrome. She walked out of one of her exams with breaks and dislocations that numbered in the dozens. It was heart-breaking for me to watch. I often wonder what happened to her ...

Anyway just wanted to say that I'm hoping you heal quickly, that the pain gets less and the medication issue gets sorted out. I have to say (in relation to casts) I ended up having to have glow-in-the-dark on my wrist/arm because otherwise I just removed it.

OOhh :S I've broken my ankle too , It's really painful , I hope it heals up well as quickly and painlessly as can be for you .

thanks guys...

yeah, it is really painful. i fell last night on these stupid crutches. i was trying to turn and lost my footing. i called the ortho this morning about the meds and she said i could take 2 at a time but then i would run out early and she wouldnt call in a refill..grrrr. i see her again on monday. im just angry right now. i hope the fall didnt damage anything to where i have to have surgery but i almost dont care.

i feel bad today. im missing my father tremendously and its driving me nuts.