How do I get my point accross?
 

Hi, I havent been around for a while, so I feel kinda bad asking for help.

Basically, I'm under the care of Early Intervention Team, as I moved down south last September for college/uni.

In October I poisened myself and was in hospital for 3 nights and had to see Crisis Team.

Majority of nights in the past year have been spent me crying for 4+ hours a night.

In the past year, Ive been out socially probabaly about 5 times.

I stopped going into college the begining of this year and done nothing all day and night, petrified by voices and people and spies, and stoppped looking after myself. (shower once a week, very little calories a day, barely drank and was dehydrated, poured a bottle of chemical all over myself and head, left the house twice a week.)

And my team have been saying "ive been stable" and my mood and voices have dipped because of a medication. (things started before the medication, and theres no proof the medication even does anything anyways.)

I dont know how to get my point accross. Maybe that its true, maybe I have been fine. I dont know. i feel like this has been one of the worst years of my life. I feel completely disabled by this. I am so confused, I dont even know whats real. These people keep following me. I am struggling so much, I cant be here anymore.

People will control me and make me do bad stuff. I need to get rid of myself before I do harm to anyone.

I dont know what to do, I feel completely let down by EIP as they are same Im fine and I've been told I dont have any "problems" really. Which fair doos, things are obviously real then.

I dont want to see them anymore. Everytime I see them I feel disappointed that once again my point of that Im struggling just doesnt seem to register or be a problem. Ive written email to cpn and letter to psychatrist. My cpn says she's going to ring me and never does.

I dont know what to do. I feel completely hopeless and lost. Thinking about suicide more and more each day.

Sorry for moaning on. x

Maybe try an advocacy service? x

could you try teling them how this is making you feel?
im so sorry you have been struggling

That sounds terrible Ami. Could you print out this post to show them?

i agree u should show them this post
i am really appuled by te way they have treated you and so unfairley i an totally understand because of similar things,
if they dont listen after showing them this or straighting things out with them maye you should find different help and support ,
when some one need's help, you dnt ignore it im sorry you are and had to go throught this hugs

Heya

Have you tried talking to the charity, Mind? They will basically fight your corner for you if you are having problems getting healthcare professionals to listen to you.

xxx

eep double post :-/ sorry

Definately try going to Mind or an advocacy service in your area (try looking on the PALS- patient advice and liason service website).

Thanks, I may show them this, not sure whether it will make a difference.

I'm also going to look at mind and PALS. Just googling now, there are some good ideas.

Does anyone have any idea how I can cope in the menwhile?

xxx

i suggest having friends or family close by
keeping yourself busy
jog/shopping/drawning listening to upbeat music
internet not looking at triggering this just postive things
hugssssxxxxxxxxxxxx