Confused
 

I was feeling fine one minute then I had my evening snack of biscuits and I just kept eating and eating and I dont know why. I havent binged in so long. Consequently, I felt like I had to get it out, so I did, it felt good but awful at the same time. Then I felt like I needed to hurt myself. I felt so out of control. I wished that I hadnt eaten more than I should have done, then I wouldnt have gotten myself into such a mess. Now Im scared of doing the same thing and I dont know how to manage it. My head is such a mess, I dotn even understand why I started doing it because I was feeling ok and I had had a good day. Maybe there are things that Im tying to avoid and thats why it happened, but it doesnt feel like it - I dont know :/

Sorry to hear that you are struggling right now hun.
I don't really know what to say I just wanted to offer my support.

Your theory sounds good, you might just be dealing with something subconciously and this is how your mind tells you you aren't ok.

I hope everything works out for you.
PM me if you need to.
x

hugs
u need to fnd ways to distract yourself
i can understand how u feel
do u get much support in this at all