oh boy...
 

So I haven't been on here in a while. I've gone a month with out SI. I've went with out for all the right reasons. My therapist and I agreed it was time for me to stop seeing her.
That was almost a week ago. I've got a horrible foggy buzz in my head. I'm fighting off crying... I'm feeling alone. It's like... the second I stopped seeing her, the world and people I relied on got their own problems and now I'm alone. I stared at my blade for a long time last night. I didn't do it only because I didn't have anything to clean it. Sadly, when I start to think about it, I start to plot and then I go into autopilot. I have a bit of peroxide in my room. I'm scared I wont make it...
Why did everyone have to get hit with something at the same time.... :-(

Life it sucks some times. Your not alone you still have your suporrt if you need it. You could phone you doctor and explain what you feel and ask there opinion on what you should do. You need some distractions. What in the past has givin you pleasure? Give me a clue into your world and I'll share anything I have that might help

Sincerely,
Chris a concerned person

life seems to trhow us one bad thing after another.
bt i have heard that we are never giving more to deal with than we can handle
can you ring a helpline or even speak to your GP?

It's mainly relationship stuff that bring me down. I haven't been connecting a lot with my best friend and that's what has been upsetting me (he's also my ex.) One of my friends said he hasn't been talking much to anyone that she knew of, so I guess it isn't just me. I'm just... really sensitive to things he does because I still love him. I just want him to be happy.
(I'm sorry if relationship stuff isn't peoples "thing" or that. It's just what I'm figuring is bothering me.)
I think I just need to get out with other friends more. I never really know what works until it's night time. That seems to be the only time I usually get triggered if I'm going to.
I just wanted people I know to know that I'm struggling. When they feel distant it's hard on me. I think I'll be alright.
Thanks for the replies. Makes me feel less alone. <3 :)
(And I'm sorry if this is a little scattered. I tried to keep it together, but my brain usually has a million things it wants to say.)