The feeling do you understand? maybe triggering
 

Why is it that one link in you day happens to be bad or go wrong will most of the time sets of a snow ball effect and other events go wrong WHY!! I have had a few days which were not great really but I got “THE FEELING” as I call it.

It feels like you have just gone over a hill in a fast car or you where on a ride and your stomach drops but this feeling is for more than a few second it feels like it lasts forever and your body goes in to a state of alarm feels like your body is tighten its self till you can feel it all over really tense.
I have not go this feeling in a very long time must be what: year and a half!

OMG I remember how much I hated that feeling and I remember why I used to self-harm to make that feeling go. I don’t know what stopped "the feeling" this time a few days like that and then went to sleep woke up and it’s gone. I have recovered from SH I don’t need it anymore but I really felt and remembered the last few days where i was and just how far i have come.

Do you know that FEELING is it the same for you?

for me it's that emotional crash that takes about a minute and a half when I finish doing something that occupies me and have to find another distraction... I can pick myself up once or twice, but there's only a few of those I can take each day before I do something self-destructive.

I keep coming back to this and reading it and i just cant make head nor tail of it >.<

Anyhoo, erm.......*hands you an otter*

Hes called Clive and he likes Eels! take care of him!

Yeh i understand that its hard to handle many times a day, mine are not short they last a lot longer! But keep trying its good that you can try to control it!

Mathew love that lol i will take care of the otter, but im changing his diet lol

im not sure i can relate except for the crashing feelings.
sending you *gentle hugs*.
xxxx