Im new, struggling in therapy.
 

Hi,

I have had several bouts of depression, the most recent being last year. I was put on the list for therapy and have waited over 6months. In that time i've pulled myself out of the depressive episode. But i though since i was being offered CBT i would go anyway because i want coping mechanisms so that i don't plunge head first into another depression.

I am now on my 5th appointment with therapist who is very good and approachable but i'm not coping now, it's opened a big can of worms that i had closed in order to cope with life.

After a mix-up about appointments, i have went downhill, and i think at the bottom of it all is the fear of abandonement and rejection. I feel like a little child again.

i think my therapist became aware of these issues last week. But i'm scared to be totally honest with her about how deep my problems go in case she says she can't help and refers me elsewhere. Hence, perpetuating the feelings or rejection and abandonement.

Anyone else have similar problems in therapy?

I've had similiar experiences with therapy. After trying to block out my problems for so long having to revisit them in therapy was tough. I know what I'm going to say sounds cliched, but it does get better. Don't be afraid to tell your therapist what you're going through, she won't say that she can't help. It's what she's there for. I know how hard it is to totally open up in therapy, but she's there to listen to you and to help you and she won't give up on you. I hope things get better for you soon

The trust issue is a hard thing to get over. And I understand not wanting to feel rejected. I don't really have any great, prolific advice other than stick with it - it really is worth it. But if you feel like you and your therapist just don't "click," find another one that you feel more comfortable with.

Good luck! You can do this! :)

Be honest.


*hands you an "i am brave" sticker*

thankyou all for your replies, yep i think i'm going to have to be upfront bout how im feeling.

jeez, therapy aint easy!