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Chasing a dream
Hey everyone,
I sent PMs to loads of people who were camped out on the sofa in my other thread, but I'm bound to have missed people, so I'll start my new thread with an explanation. I'm sorry I left without any explanaitions, I didnt even know at the time I wasnt coming back, but then I made the decision to cut out certain things in order to move on. I took a year out from here to sort my head out. This place was my lifeline for years, but in the end, I was stuck in a pattern and I needed something new. I got my head together, and started on a new phase in my life, and for the first time in a long time, I am truly happy, I have plans, I can see a future, and it looks good. Because of this, I dont feel ready to pick up (Once a Liar...) again just yet. It is too closely linked to that part of my life, and I dont want to go tearing those wounds open again. Maybe one day, when I've moved on a bit more, I will come back to it. So I have a new offering for you. I put a triggering warning on it because it is likely to mention S/H, abuse, and particularly EDs, but it will be a story of a new life, of dreams, hopes and love, but hopefully you will love it just as much as my other story, maybe even more. I've learned a lot about myself in the last year, and I hope this shows through. I'll post the first chapter tomorrow, I have to sleep now. Thank you for all the support, and the amazing amounts of love I feel from you all. Kate xxxxxxxxxx |
This thread doesnt seem to be showing up in the CC :S
*edit* I can see it on my iPhone but not on my laptop. Weird :/ |
the title seems encouraging
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anything you write I'm sure will be very good:)
glad your back and feeling better, cant wait to read your updates am always a pm away if you wana chat xx |
Look forward to seeing your new story :)
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Hey everyone,
A bit different before, but like I said, i'm in a different headspace now. If you dont like it, let me know, and I'll take a look at the other one again instead. Anyway, hope you all enjoy. Chapter One- A New Beginning. I threw my pen on the desk, finally done. It had taken me almost three hours to complete a task I thought would only take ten minutes. I thought it would be simple. One hundred goals, one hundred things I want to see, things I want to experience, things I want to do to make my life better. But actually, it was harder than I imagined. Sure, these things always sound easy when they pop into your head, but actually writing them down and doing something about them is that bit harder. Once, I would have just laughed it off, given up within the first five minutes, but I’m not that person any more. I don’t let things just pass me by. Once I just lived in my room, mourning the life I used to have, the happy, carefree childhood, the loving family, the desire to do something with my life. I used to have ambitions, hopes, dreams, and a burning desire to accomplish anything I set my mind to. But at some point that path was hidden from me. It was always there, those people were always there, but at the time I couldn’t see it, couldn’t see how I was tearing my family apart, how I was tearing myself apart. I fell in with the wrong crowd at school. Don’t get me wrong, they were amazing people, clever, funny, supportive. They didn’t drugs, at the time they didn’t drink, we went to the cinema and had sleepovers and made shadow puppets on the ceiling until 2am. They loved me for who I was, and for the first time, I felt accepted. But really, instead of accepting me for who I was, they changed me into the person they wanted me to be. I watched myself become the type of person I always used to pity. A thief, a liar, a failure. I always loved school, but then I started getting lower and lower grades. I didn’t listen in lessons. I didn’t do my work in class. I went home every night and studied, trying to catch up with the work I missed, and then do my homework on top, but inevitably it started to slip away from me. People started to catch a glimpse of the real me behind the carefully crafted mask I hid behind. One day, I got a wake-up call. I don’t even remember what it was, such an important moment in my life and it’s just been lost somewhere along the way. Maybe it’s for the best. So many of my memories are gone, but to be honest, I don’t want to remember the person that I was. I’ve come through that time, and I no longer see those people, I’ve made decisions that are going to change my life and I refuse to look back. No more procrastinating. No more waiting in my room for someone to change my life for me. In this life, the only person who can change my life is me. Every morning I used to look in the mirror and hate what I saw. Even these days I don’t see perfection, but I see hope. I see a path forward, even if it isn’t the path I saw five years ago. I’ve changed, my life has changed, and I’ve become a different person. So today, I wrote my bucket list. A list of 100 things I want to do before I die. Some of them might not seem like much to most people, some of them are almost unachievable, but the point is I have goals. Something to aim for, something to make my life better. Here it is: Sport 1. Run 1 mile 2. Run 10k 3. Run a half marathon 4. Run a marathon 5. Learn to ice skate 6. Learn to play tennis 7. Learn to water ski 8. Learn to sail a yacht 9. Learn to surf Languages 10. Learn Welsh 11. Learn French Music and Dance 12. Learn to play piano 13. Learn to play guitar 14. Take a belly dance class. Extreme experiences 15. Ride in a hot air balloon 16. Go paragliding 17. Go skydiving 18. Go scuba diving 19. Walk across hot coals 20. Go bungee jumping 21. Go white water rafting 22. Learn to fly a plane 23. Take a canopy tour 24. Go in an anti-gravity chamber Places to Visit 25. Go to Times Square on New Year’s Eve 26. Swim in the worlds largest swimming pool 27. Watch a rocket launch live 28. Visit the Grand Canyon 29. Visit Victoria Falls 30. Float in the Dead Sea 31. Watch the Aurora Borealis 32. Stand on a free-floating iceberg 33. Visit the great barrier reef 34. Visit the Galapagos Islands 35. Drive through all 50 states of America 36. Waikiki Beach, Oahu, Hawaii Festivals 37. The National Cherry Blossom Festival, Washington, DC 38. The Brazilian Carnival, Rio de Janerio 39. Mardi Gras, New Orleans 40. Day of the Dead, Mexico 41. Loy Krathong, the sky lantern festival in Thailand 42. Carnival in Venice, Italy 43. Macy’s thanksgiving parade, New York Books 44. Write a list of 100 books I want to read 45. Read the complete works of Shakespeare 46. Read every Sherlock Holmes novel 47. Read ‘War and Peace’ 48. Read ‘On the Origin of Species’ 49. Read every novel that has won a Pulitzer Prize in the Fiction Category Films 50. Write a list of 100 films I want to watch 51. Watch every movie that has won an Academy Award for Best Picture Things to Learn 52. Learn to play poker 53. Learn to play pool 54. Learn to drive 55. Learn to drive a motorbike Self Improvement 56. Reach a healthy BMI. 57. Go on a wilderness trek 58. Become an early riser 59. Do something selfless for someone else 60. Make a difference in someone’s life 61. Work for Camp America 62. Spend a week at a silent retreat 63. Take up Tai Chi 64. Take up Yoga 65. Start a blog Education 66. Finish high school 67. Pass my A-levels 68. Get a 2:1 in my degree 69. Get a PHD Contributions to the World 70. Raise £1,000,000 for charity 71. Build a Habitat for Humanity home 72. Donate blood Family and Love 73. Fall in love 74. Get married 75. Adopt a child 76. Adopt a second child 77. Tell one member of my family I love them every day. The High Life 78. Buy something at Harrods 79. Own a yacht 80. Build my own home. 81. Own a Beach House 82. Spend a week at a 5* spa 83. Have ‘High Tea’ at the Plaza Hotel in New York Work and Career 84. Be recognised as an authority in my field 85. Be world renowned in my field 86. Make a valuable contribution to my field 87. Open my own business 88. Lecture at a university Animals 89. Swim with sharks 90. Swim with dolphins 91. Swim with manatees 92. Watch turtles hatch and run for the ocean 93. Own an aquarium 94. Go whale watching 95. Cuddle a koala 96. See a duck-billed platypus 97. Go on safari 98. See gorillas in the wild 99. See orang-utans in the wild 100. Be happy with myself! |
I really like this
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omg wow this is really good hun:)
I think I'll be loving this story too!!! |
I'm liking :)
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this is good
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