Pills and heroin
 

I can't get opiates out of my mind. I have destroyed my life popping pills and sticking needles in my arm. I lost my friends my family my job the guy I love.

I am around two weeks clean because I am looking for a job and will probably need to pass a drug test for one. But I can't get past the emotional want. I used for a long time and cant wait to use again. If someone handed something to me right now I would do it no questions asked.

Is there anyone out there in the same boat? I could use a friend or support. Or advice. I don't know what can help.

i can relate to how you are feeling right now. im the same when it comes to alcohol.

two weeks is great to be clean as it is sooo hard to refrian from giving in.

keep reminding yourself of positive reasons to stay clean.
keep fighting the urges.

Unfortunately that "want" never really goes away, I haven't stuck a needle in my arm in almost 2 years but I still wantit almost every single day...

The good thing is it does get easier to push that feeling to the back of your mind, and to say no if offered.

Just remember the grass is always greener, if you are clean, you'll be wishin you where high, and when you are high you'll be wishing you're clean, but if you remember you're far less likely to completely **** up up everything on a grand scale when you're sober it makes a little tiny bit easier to stay that way