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I don't know if I will be able to explain this properly but I'll try.

My mood started to lift about Wednesday last week and I guess Friday night I started to get a few projects on the go I don't know if I was going high or not at that point but I think I was heading in that direction.

Sunday night I eventually got to sleep at 8 am and had a really crappy sleep for two hours. I couldn't get to sleep because my thoughts were whirring a bit like they were in November. I saw Rachel my care person and I was okay I guess I felt buzzed but not as bad as during the night.

I wasn't tired during the day but was able to concentrate though whenever i wasnt focused on something the thoughts started moving again. Last night the same thing happened and I think I got 3 hours sleep I woke up and again was normal in the Drs appt.

I don't know it just feels like sometimes everythings a million miles a minute but then it's not and I'm not happy im not depressed either im kind of in the middle and it's odd.

I know if it continues I need to let rachel know but I don't feel like im ill but its all a bit weird does that make sense.

i dont know I kind of feel a mash up of everything and I dont understand

Are you diagnosed with bipolar? It sounds really difficult having things change so much so quickly and that it would be a good idea to talk to someone about it. Maybe there are coping mechanisms that you can learn to manage your moods & more effective meds you can take. How are you now? *hugs* Hope you're ok.

Yeah I apparently have bipolar.

I saw my counsellor tonight so we are keeping an eye on it.

I dont think im in a mixed episode this is more fun now

though i should sleep but im awake awake awake!

hum 8 hours till the morning

Im still awake

Its kind of dull so i think im going to finish tidying then go explore on a night bus.

Its very dull being awake for so long Ive been halted cause i forgot to eat supper and im kind of shaky again so im eating cereal but i keep getting distracted so i thought id spam my own thread 4 - 5 hours till morning

I thought I'd carry on spamming my own thread because well it's fun to talk yourself well that can be questionable but then I've always been a bit of a daydreamer. I had a work interview thing it was funny cause I was talking and I thinking what she doing here this was to do with my ESA benefits.

I saw the Dr and Rachel last night and they made some changes and anyhow the most important news is I slept last night :D I do love Zoplicone!!