Still wantin to drink
 

Hello, Im a recovering alcoholic, but the thought of drinking still lingers everyday. Im 20, and ive been drinking since i was 13.

Recently, Ive realized that drinking my life away wasn't the right choice and tried to stop. So far, I have drank in almost a year! But, when I get depressed i want to drink. Of course, it doesnt help i grew up in a house full of it.
Both my parents were alcoholics and my dad still drinks in front of me, like he's done my whole life.
I dont want to be like that, drinking my life away for no reason at all. But at the same time, that part of me that used to drink i knw is still there. and prolly always will be.

For now, im trying really really hard not to.

Number one congrats on the one year! =)
I'm sorry your going though this right now. But try and do stuff when you get depressed so it takes your mind off drinking. Maybe call a friend or hang out with them and so you can get out of that house with all the triggers.

thank u sam

thats one reason why i work and go to school is so it takes my mind of drinking. but sometimes thts not even enough. and ive been hangin out with a couple friends lately so i just get away

For me, I try and keep myself busy with making artwork and music...but it's still really hard. Also, a lot of my friends drink, and our social activities involve a lot of alcohol, so...it makes it a challenge.

I drink when I'm depressed too. Or bored. Or anxious...Which is dumb, because if I am drinking while in a bad mindset, it makes it worse. I wish it wasn't such a crutch, and I think it's great you've gone for so long without a drink.

I find drinkin makes me happy & sad. Happy when Im on it, sad when Im not.Quenches my thirst for other drugs mind. The other week I met a girl who wanted to give me a shine for some white. I didnt have a scooby what she was on about, but with the benefit of hindsight, if she was better looking I would now be well shiny.