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truely its hard to know what to write here.
i've been away for a bit... just needed to be
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don't even know where to begin
i think i just need a friend.
things are pretty miserable right now
sitting on the verge of tears constantly
drinking and smoking to get by but its far from ideal
i'm not moving backwards, or sitting in what has been, im just not coping, nor sure how to cope, with what is.
not really at a place where i can go in to whys and wherefores, perhaps later, but its hard enough reaching out even a pinkie at the moment let alone a whole hand

been wondering how you have been...obv., not good.
PM if you want ok?
xxx

Hi Becci Well done for taking the first step and reaching out. Are your puppies still good therapy for you? I hope that you will find what you need to get through this difficult time. Take care of yourself if you can.

cant find the will to make food, even though my stomach is painful with hunger
cant figure out why i plummet. yesterday was wonderful, best time i've had in a while... today i feel like i'm 2 years behind myself and making a mess as i go....bloody hell i need a brain transplant

*Hugs* Sorry to hear your finding things difficult at the moment, and around if you ever need someone to talk to. Hold on there hun, you will get through this.