So stupid
 

You should see this cut. About 2 3/4 inches long, just under a half inch wide I'd say... it needs stitched but it will have to do with the tape I stretched across it because no way am I going to hospital... with none of my 'usual' baby-sitters in town any more?! No. Huh-uh, not happening. What's worse is instead of feeling better I feel worse... worse because I know the kind of scar that will be left behind. Worse because I know better. Worse because I drank tonight just so I could cut, and cut 'well'.

I'm such an idiot. I hate this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm just... sorry. :crying:

*cuddles ally*

u tried your best to stay safe, i'm sure!! But don't let a slip up ruin ur recovery....keep at it xxx

A cut like that needs to be stitched. Theyre hardly gonna force you to stay in hosp just coz they stitch you up. I think you should go, you wont tho but i think you should. Ur choice tho of course :) sorry u cut hope ur feeling better when u wake up

Go get it stitched hun. I had the same thing last week and got it stitched. I don't have many words for you other than I understand and please take care of the cut and yourself *hugs*

I can't guys. I don't want to have to deal with mental health. And with my luck I'd get the doc who cares too much to let you say no (one time I went in because a cut was infected and he was very nice, I liked him a lot, he didn't even make me wait to talk to someone from mental health . Instead he called them and had me talk to one over the phone. She asked if I was interested in 'services' (therapy) and told her, thanks, no. He wanted to talk to them after so I gave the phone back and apparently when told I had said no to therapy he decided that I DID need to wait and I wound up there all afternoon just to tell a DIFFERENT person the same thing I told the first).

Anyway I've got it taped really well guys. I'm pretty good at it.

Please take good care of the cut , it could easily get infected , keep it clean . I would say go to the hospital but I won't , just try and stay safe ok.

Oh I hope not *shudder* I can't afford antibiotics

Ally!! Please don't beat yourself up for this. I mean, I know you already technically beat yourself up but it is what it is...and all that matters now is that you take good care of it. I would also like to tell you to go to the hospital, but I've been in that position too and I wouldn't want to go. Just promise me that you are taking care of that cut really well and are checking on it regularly, and that if it shows any sign of getting infected you will go to the doctor and tell them that it was the damnedest thing that random razor wire or something. Okay? Okay, I'll shut up now. I'm thinking of you and I know, regardless of whether you do, that this is going to pass and you will overcome it.
xoxoxo

D'Arcy

D'Arcy!! *hugs*
Yeah, I'm keeping an eye on it hun, and putting over the counter antibiotic cream on it (as best I can with it all tapped up). It's not the worst I've ever done (close or as bad but not the worst) and that one came out fine so *crosses fingers* here's hoping. I can't afford antibiotics so going to get it looked at would be a waste of time regardless. *shrug* The rest of this ****... well, it is what it is, I guess. Take care sweetie.