RYL Forums - new and old relationships

I usually don’t post here, but I thought I would give it a try since I’m feeling really upset at the moment.

Someone from work set me up a on blind date today. So I met the guy and he’s really nice. The date was kind of awkward. We had a hard time coming up with things to talk about and it was just boring. The guy is really nice though, but there was just nothing there. Is this normal for a first date?

I’ve only had one boyfriend. When we met I instantly liked him. It wasn’t love at first sight (I don’t believe in that anyway) but we definitely just clicked right away. I have not felt that with anyone else. It’s like I’ve met some really nice guys but I just can not see myself in a relationship with any of them. It’s been around three years since I have spoken to my ex. I’m not even interested in giving this new guy a chance. I don’t know why, maybe because the date was awkward and boring? Things were never awkward like this with my ex. I feel like crap right now. After the date I added my ex to facebook... I still can’t believe I did that. Maybe he is the only one really out there for me.

The new guy keeps texting me and it’s kind of annoying me. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. It’s been three years since my last relationship and I am still thinking about my ex... I don’t know. He was my first and only love. I want a relationship but I just can’t seem to find anyone that is nearly as fun or easy to talk to as he was. I feel like I am going to just keep effeing up potential relationships, but I just don’t see the point in dating someone who I don’t feel that connection with right away.