I think I have a problem.
 

I woke up this morning after a weekend of partying, and I realised that being sober is more scary than anything else to me, I don't want to be sober...
I've been drinking a lot more than usual recently, going out a lot more, and I also realise that the only reason I enjoy going out so much is because being drunk and out of control makes me happy, when I'm not drunk, I'm horrifically depressed.
I think I have a problem, and apparently so does most of my friends, they've just neglected to tell me for months, everyone in my family are alcoholics, and I'm not scared of the damage I might do to myself, I'm scared of the damage I might do to other people, like the damage my aunt and various other family members have done to me.
I hate being sober.