Can't even think of a title.
 

Argh! Damn it!!
I was so close, I was almost one month SI free and then this guy walks into my life and he's got all kinds of strange **** going on. Claims he's a magician for some kind of magical cult, I dunno. Anyway, like an idiot I trusted him and confided in him and then, when I tried to question his whole 'angels and demons' belief (and I didn't do it nastily), he just snapped at me 'at least I'm not the one cutting myself.'
I lost it. I jumped up, grabbed my things and stormed out. I think I shocked him (I'm usually the calmest person in the world) and we had a pretty nasty argument. But the next day it was forgotten. But tonight I heard him do his same 'misunderstood magician' thing with another girl and it just set me off. I left immediately and came home but I've just cut twice and I'm so ****ing angry because it's a crap excuse. He's just not worth it but now I'm bleeding and annoyed because I was SO F-ING CLOSE to one month :'(
I don't even know why I'm writing this, I just wish there was someone I could talk to who knows what this is like. I miss my counsellor :'(
And I'm SO ANGRY at myself!!
Can't think of anything to say. Sorry for taking up a thread.
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I'm sorry that you slipped into his trap, and also slipped into SI again. :( That really sucks...

Is there any way that you can see your counselor again? or was it like a limited-session type of thing?

I wish I knew what else to say. Just know that I'm here and I care, and my inbox is always open if you want to PM. *gentle hugs*