not ok
 

I'm falling into deeper depression again...The cutting is getting worse and spring break is in 2 weeks. I feel like I'm screwed. I am trying to get it so I will spend it away from home but I just gotta get a ride. I am seeing a new dr as well and am nervous about that....Like whether or not I should tell her or wait. My leg looks disgusting with scars and is lower on my leg so harder to hide in the summer. My wrist looks eh but stupid me is cutting the wrist I am having physical therapy on. So the therapists notice. This summer I am going into Partial hospitalization and am nervous about that...I have no clue what it'll be like. I am mainly frusterated with my cutting. I am at the point where I want to go really deep again but am afraid. I hate myself and what I do........




sorry this is long and rant like.

I guess I have no words, but I wanted to let you know I've read it, and im thinking about you!

Ugh so my ipod decided to erase itself so I lost a bunch of songs amd videos i hadn't had the chance to upload to my computer.(the hard drive went a week ago)... And I have a bad spending habbit and bought a 26 dollar book that I have wanted to buy but am really regretting buying now becuase I dont have the money. I know stupid right... I don't want to return it becuase I really want to read it. I now only have 1.75 in my bamk account....at least until Thrusday...I am feeling really stressed with school work again....On the plus side my spring break is next week....They worked me a bit too much in physical therapy and now my wrist is hurting...On the plus side it makes it easier to hide the scars scince I am wear a wrist brace.