I want to.....
 

self destruct....
take pills.....
drink.....
make excuses.....
isolate.....
continue hating myself and judging myself, because that is all i ever feel like i do......
getting my meds refilled tonight......
i have given in to the "sickness"
just very unsafe right now........

self destruct.... did not accomplish
take pills.... yes but not many
drink.... no didnt feel like it
make excuses.... kinda
isolate..... working on that now
hating and judging..... indifferent
taken meds, i sit here, and i think there are more pills downstairs that i could take, i could just take a bunch.... yes take them...... no dont take them.... yes take them..... fighting sleep for some reason and im sooooo exhausted.....
just numb, dont really care about anything right now. dont want to do anything in particular right now.... maybe sleep is the best option....
still slightly unsafe....

perhaps if this was moved to support you may get more replies...whats going on for you sweetness 4u

For what its worth my advice is dont fight sleep. Sleep is a luxury. Get plenty of it wish I could being an insomniac.

*hugs*
You know, carrying on in this self destructive behaviour will only make yourself feel worse in the long run. Have you thought about getting help off a professional?

(Also this board is pretty quiet and dosnt get many replies. So if you want me to move your thread to a busier board, then just drop me a pm and I can do that for you)
Take care
Kim