distractions.
 

Okay, sorry for posting, I hardly post threads anywhere. sorry.
I haven't cut in like, forever. months and months. usually I can just ignore the urges, I've coped for so long, but today, tonight... tonight is different. I dont think I can ignore it tonight. I so badly want the urges to stop, but I so badly need to cut, I think its stronger.
and I can't. I have work on saturday, and I dont have my long sleeved shirt.
I dont even know if anyone can help me, this is such a nonsense post.
Sorry.

i am really sorry you are struggling *hugs*

the longest i've been without cutting was for a week. but each night i managed by drawing and coloring. i would fill in an entire page with random doodles and color them in well with a thin ink pen. it was the best distraction i had. it would eventually calm my mind enough for me to sleep but even when my mind was still filled with urges, accusations, insults, and other negative thoughts, i just put all of my emotion into drawing and filling in these designs perfectly.
it is worth a try because while my mind was running wild, my hands were too, but not in a self destructive way

ohh wow alright thank you, thats a really good idea:)

I think this is a great post, not full of nonsense at all. I am really glad you have reached out for help.

You may have seen this before but just in case, take a look at the top of the forum and click on 'Distractions' - there are lots of different things there to take a look at such as the big distraction list. I would give a link but my computer won't let me!

Sometimes I find going on the RYL arcade helps, I am always on Snake and it keeps me occupied for a little while.

xx