hard to explain
 

I feel like asking for help but i dont know what is wrong with me~~

I feel emotionally drained all the time and I get depressed while dreaming of good things in life. I keep believing Im a rich guy and have a decent job but in reality Im poor and work in a timber yard (haha) but when this reality hits I feel Like **** and I grow jealous of other people around me..

I lack motivation in life or improving it nor do I have any friends to talk to... I feel like ***** mmmm there is more to it but cant word it correctly owell.......

It sounds like you could definitely do with some kind of support or at least someone to talk to about your feelings. What about looking to see if you can attend counseling sessions?
Feel free to message me if you'd like to talk about anything.
I understand and can relate to your feelings of jealousy about other people's lives but they are often not as good as they may seem in reality.
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We are all here to support you, but who supports you in real life? Could you try speaking to your doctor about how you are feeling? I understand that it's difficult for you to explain but the parts that you have managed to explain have been explained well. When you find yourself starting to imagine good things in life can you stop yourself? I know that it can be good at the time to pretend that things are better than they are but it isn't helpful in the long run. Maybe you could think about the things that ARE good in your life, such as family if you have any.

Your lack of motivation might be because of you feeling emotionally drained, if you can talk to someone about tackling that you might find yourself feeling more motivated. There's lots that you can do with your life to make it feel more worthwhile so that you don't have to compare yourself to other people so much. Take care and get in touch at any time.