Comfort.
 

Hey all,

I've been really struggling with self-harm lately. At this point, I do not even need to be triggered; it's just something I do. It's how I wind down before bed, it's how I end my day. Cutting is like my security blanket; once I see blood, I know that everything is going to be okay. I know that I am still in control.

How am I supposed to quit when SH is the only secure thing in my life? Everything else around me is changing, but the bite of the blade is still the same.

It's just so hard. Sometimes, I can't even remember why I need to stop.

What is out of control?
What is insecure?

wow...that totally describes me right now. i cant offer much support except to say that ur not alone in how you feel. Cutting is my sanity...how ironic is that!

xxxx

*hugs Jessi*
I can totally relate to what you are saying also! I'm exactly the same! It's like I need it. So you are not alone! I don't know if I can offer any helpful advice, only that you can only begin the process of stopping when you are ready to.
Take care of yourself!