Doing my head in!!...does anyone else do this?
 

I find it so hard at this time of year...other than the fact it is dark, wintry and cold I have bad memories attached and for some unknown reason I hold on to them, like an anniversary. Why do I do that?
I write prose/poetry. Have done since I was 17 yrs. I've used it for a space to let go of my thoughts. However, as the years have passed I have begun to 'automatic' write. It's not anyone else, or another being through me, it is me and I do have a certain amount of control.
I begin to hear the words in my head. I could be doing something, watching something and off it goes. I try to ignore it but it becomes so intense I have to go and write it down. I'm doing it so often at the moment it's making me feel like I'm going crazy. Am I alone in this? Can anyone relate to this?
(I have pieces in the creative corner if you'd like to see a few...:ermm: )

This doesn't happen to me, but I reckon it could just be that you have a really strong creative energy. If getting the things down onto paper helps, then go for it.

Thanks for your reply.

Feels quite lonely where I am in my head right now. Fighting the demons.

I hear you sweety. I really hear you. Gosh I wish there was an easy fix for how we are feeling that doesn't involve harming oneself in any way, through drink, drugs and other things...

Take care of you. You are a one in a billion. :)

Thank you for your kind words shebrolet. They mean a lot :)

Im exactly the same. Especially in October.

That's when it really becomes strong - October. There's this overwhelming control and the dark nights push the feeling deeper still. Nice to know I'm not alone in this one.