what do I do?
 

had these thoughts in my head since something happened at the weekend that i cant deal with

back in school/college I was miserable and had no one and was amazingly ****ed up but at least I knew that was the case and what to expect from day to day life.

when I begin to come out of it and bother with people and life I get hurt. I know its just a learning curve im going through that the majority of people go through when they are in high school therefore I should give myself time and accept that I'm just a late starter. but its hard. every time i get hurt i think why not just go back to safe grounds. it involved self harm and drugs and purging but i was comfortable with the way things were even if i hated them at the same time.

i dont know what to do. on one hand i know i should just be patient and keep going through these learning curves but on the other i cant deal with being hurt all of the time and its hard.

*hugs* i don't think you should go back to drugs. like you said these things take time. are you perhaps trusting the wrong people? could you maybe try counseling to help improve your relationships with other people? hang in there. we're here for you. feel free to pm me anytime.

It's understandable you'd feel exposed and vulnerable.
We're here to listen and support you through this. And if you feel you'd like to talk some more about what happened over the weekend.