no reserves left
 

I am done with life.
Im so unsafe right now.

urgh

ok.....please keep talking here sweetie.
im not sure whats going on but i want to help if i can.
much love to you.
xx

Please .......... please hold onto life,
dont let go yet.....just wait a while

i hear how unsafe you feel ......... surround yourself
with distractions from here, ryl, keep talking ....keep reaching out

we care ....about you
we will ...support you

Hugs you

Dave

Thank you for ur kind and promt replies. I reely apriciate it.
I was talking to someone on msn tonight and they confessed something to me that makes me realist just how emntionally unstable they are.. and she was telling me how sui she is.. and i think she was expecting me too try and talk her out of it. Of course i said all the right things but all the time i was wishing i could do the things she was telling me about.
i just dont want to live anymore.

i cant put up with the highs and lows. if my psych cant even see them then wots the point of taking the medication thats wrong. its making me so fat and hideous i hate myself idiot scarred body fat useless hate myself so much

*snuggles*
i understand how that could have triggered you.
ive been there.
ive also been on meds that made me gain weight. there are other meds that you can take that dont cause weight gain. maybe speak to your doc about it.
until then...please hold on tight.
much love.
xx

it doesnt matter anyway. whenever i question him about changing meds he says 'next time i see you we'll think about it'

i should just stop them myself.

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I said in a previous post that i found a lump in my breast. If its cancer maybe i should refuse treatment. then i could die without it being suicide.

i need to be gone

hunni...i dont know what to offer. i can feel your desperation. please hold on.
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Thank u hunni.. i know ur having a hard time too

(((((((( big huggles ))))))))

Just having u read and post makes all the difference. It means Im not alone in this.

Peace and love.