the old familiar escape
 

I haven't cut in 5 years. every time I have a bad day I have this urge that cutting myself would make it feel better. why after all this time doesn't it go away??

I have turned into a responsible adult. I have a house, job, car, etc. but the feeling deep inside never changes. I cannot seem to move past this deep lack of conviction. every time I drive to work on the morning I think to myself that no one would notice if my car left the road and collided with an immovable object.

why cant I get past this?

Hi. First of all well done for not cutting in 5years, you should be proud of yourself.

It does take time, but I hope you remember that if you do harm it will only make things worse not better. People would notice if you if you put your car of the road, people would miss you.

You can get through you have already done 5years that is a big achievment.

your not alone
Louise x