What do I do?!
 

Haha!....a neosporin commercial just came on....=D.....

Well, anyways, this is my first post on here and I'm not really computer savvy, so sorry if it's in the wrong place.....

I cut last night and kind of freaked out because it was mainly just one cut, but my entire arm got tingly and numb and I started getting dizzy and it kind of bled a lot..... like a square foot on the bathroom tiles..... I've never cut this deep before--it's like 1cm wide, 1 inch long and 1cm deep.....I can see all the different layers of skin and fat or muscle underneath.....and I don't know what to do with it.....i don't have anything to put on it but water, antibacterial soap, a strange bandage, and some gel thing for "minor cuts and scrapes".....um...close enough? Was that all right? Is it normal to always want to do it worse the next time? .....I know this is kind of weird.....sorry.....

I'm sorry you cut that bad last night.
You know the best thing to do in that situation is to go see a doctor because they can treat you properly and make sure the wound doesn't get infected.

It sounds like you did the best you could to keep it clean, which is good. Just keep the cut clean and dry for at least the next few days until it starts to heal. Keep putting antibacterial cream on it (neosporin would work well!)

With regards to 'is it normal', i don't know. But, i know that i've had that feeling before, as have other people i know. So you're not alone.
Have you got a therapist or something you can talk to about how you're feeling?

Take care,
Tabby x

I've had a therapist since I was like.....3.....my current one knows that I cut "in the past" but doesn't think I've cut since I was 13 and that it wasn't anything serious.....I couldn't tell her now.....I don't do well in person, talking about things.....

And there's no way to get to the doctor without my parents and they're a major part of the problem.....

Random Questions: If I used to hurt myself when I was in pre-school and told my therapist I wanted to die when I was 8, why didn't anyone do anything? Was that like, the baby version of SI? I just can't help but think I'm a nut.....in SO many ways.....

I don't know why noone did nothing. I was depressed and anxious as a child and noone noticed.
I wouldn't say you were a 'nut', rather, it sounds like you've not had a happy life, and developed strategies to cope with that the best you could at the time.

sounds like you need stitches...its important to keep them clean when they're deep cuz it increases chance for infection...please see a doctor.

Ok, this wound should recieve medical care. You should go to the hospital or doctors as soon sa possible. You perants dont nescarily need to know, however it might be a good idea for them to know, so that they can offeryou some support.

As for wanting to do more damage, you are definetly not alone on this one. I thinkn it is related to our desire to self destruct.

Take care
Kim

okay. the cut, i think you might have gone dizzy because of the amount of blood lost over such a quick period of time. your arm might have gone numb because you hit a nerve?


meh i'm no expert. but it sounds like it needs stitches, keep it clean, get it seen to.


as to the wanting to hurt more, as bitter_angel has said, your not alone. i think most people on ryl have that problem.


so yeah, get it seen to =)


kyle x