falling again, losing hope
 

sinking down again, turning to old survival methods, and can't see a way out, about to lose my job, which means losing my house as well, no where to go, I'm so fed up, I don't want to slip back into that hole but can't see any way out, I'm scared and feeling alone

I realize you posted this a bit ago....
how are you now?
Whats happened with your job?
Is it (losing the job) due to how you are feeling/MI stuff?
Do you have a doc/psych/etc to talk to?
Who could maybe sign off for awhile?
here if you need/want
thinnking of you

How come you're about to lose your job? Is it really happening or are you looking at things from a skewed point of view?
I echo romp, is there someone you can talk to about this, get some support/help from? Perhaps you need some time looking after yourself.
Take care
Cx