im being admitted at 2 oclock today *poss si trig*
 

aand im frightened..I lways said i wouldnt got back there.

Im not on a section this time though thank god.

I had to see the crisis team twice yesterday
And they were useless and wouldnt listen as usual
but my psych has just been out to see me and she had a rant about what a waste of space theyve been so she phoned and now they have a bed for me.
And ive got to be there at 2 oclock.

And im officialy terrified

Last time i was in i made a big show of telling all the staff that they would never see me back there again, as i was confident that i was going to get better and rock the world and all that shizz.

Now they will think im just stupid.
I think im gonna go straight to my room and hide under the sheets for a few days =l

I dont want to be with people i dont want to hear them i dont want to see them and thats kind of impossible in hispital.

Im just realy scared and paranoid at the moment and i just want to rip myself to peices.:crying:

Im just writing this to let those of you that know me that i wont be around and if you have lost/deleted the ward number (im going back on the same ward) i will try and get it to you when i can.

Also a few encouraging words wouldnt go a miss as like i said i realy do feel like a stupid, pathetic, idiotic failure.:crying:

Thankyou,
Meg

AWW meggy. Remember I love you sweetie and I still have hospital number on phone so you will be hearing from me...

Chin up babe remember I love you hun xxxx

I'm sure no one will think you are stupid. They are there to help you, not to judge you. The important thing is you are taking the help *hugs* Good luck, I hope it goes ok xxxxxxxx

*hugs* No one will think you're stupid hun, it's great you were so confident before but sometimes we still need help however confident we are of getting better.
Take care of yourself and I hope you feel better soon
*more hugs*
Xxxx

*cuddles* They won't think your stupid hun, they are there to help you. I hope it helps you, thinking of you

Meg,
you can do this, it will be okay, and the staff won´t think anything bad of you because you´re going back, and it is great (well as these things go) that you´re not on a section.

Good luck and I really hope things get better for you
Claire xxx

Take care of yourself, i'll be thinking about you.

The staff won't think you're stupid for going back and they won't judge you for it, I felt the same the second time I went IP but they were very understanding.

You're not a failure, you're very brave for agreeing to go in voluntarily and I hope it helps you hun. Take care.

x

Good luck, I hope it helps.

Don't let yourself think that.
They won't think you're stupid.
Take care. xx

*hugs* no one will think you are stupid hun..
I'm glad you made the decision for yourself, it's so much easier than being on a section!..
Proud of you hun, you will get through this dw .


will ring you tomorrow.

Loves
xx

best of luck
hopefully ths time on the ward wil help xx

Thanks all.
Mom is here visiting at the moment and she bought my laptop in for me so i could reply to this thread.
Its not going so bad.
And thannkyou for all your kind encouraging words.
I love you all xx

Hope it works out for.
Thinking of you. :]

xXx *glomps*

Hope you're alright, sweetie.
Thinking of you. xx

Am thinking of you Meggles, miss you sweetie.
You CAN get through this & remember I'm always here for you too.
xxxx

Fankyouu x

love you meg xxx

*cuddles* Thinking of you

Make the most of this. You can totally do this! Keep us posted k? We'll be thinking of you. :)

Zoe x