it still *possibly triggering*
 

God baby, how i miss you still. We were so in love. Why couldnt that be enough. you said you had waited your whole life to meet me. then why couldnt we live our lives out together. that was all i wanted out of life. to just spend it with you. you made me happy when i thought i could never be happy. because of you i loved when before i believed love was a myth.
it still hurts inside. i still miss you so much. i think about you all the time/ in the good times and the bad.
your jumper still lies next to me when i sleep.
you will always be a part of me. my love, my light. always a place in my heart.
i miss you so. god, i want to be with you more then anything. to be safe and warm in your arms. loved by your kisses, and made to see reason with your matter of fact common sense. heh.
my Vilhelm, why couldnt you stay with me. or take me with you.
you always took care of me. held me when i cried. jumped to my defense when anyone hurt me. made sure i was never lonely.
i love you

I'm so sorry. I know it hurts, but try to remember the good times and be grateful you knew him.

If I could give you a real hug I would.
xxx

I understand. I could have written this, in fact.

It's been eighteen months, now, since my fiancée died. I recognise every word of your post, I know how it feels. It's like losing a limb, it shatters your life and nothing is ever the same again afterwards.

It's possible to build a new life, though. It's hard, but it's possible. I'm in the process of doing that now, and it's proving difficult but doable. I wish you much luck, and send you my love. Please get in touch if you ever fancy chatting to someone who Gets It.