Made quite a mess
 

Well turns out not going the doctors was a bad thing.

I ended up jumping into a canal in a rather half arsed attempt to kill myself. Ended up in hospital with no shoes, not sure how I lost them, being poked by nurses.

I'm fairly ok apart from messing up my right arm but again no real idea how I did that I think I may have hit the side on the way down.

So in the end, lost an expensive pair of shoes and I get to go see people about help a week on Tuesday.

Im so sorry things are so bad for you right now.
I hope the people youre seeing on tuesday can offer
you the help and support that you need right now xx

I'm not even sure how it ended up like that. I went out too see a friends band play and had a good night then it just all came apart.

was there any alcohol or drugs taken while yu were out?
do you still feel like this right now?

I did get asked repeatedly that but no I'm very anti-drug.

Is there any way that you can get support sooner? Take care.

I'll be fine far to bashed and bruised to do anything right now and I'm an expert on pretending everything is ok.

Didn't go my appointment either. I was undecided but solved that by not waking up until 15 minutes after it should have started.

Sometimes it takes a shock to get us to ask for help.
Sometimes it still takes time.

I hope you can visit these people eventually, they may just be exactly what you need!
Do you drink? Because I've had friends who have lost days from having their drinks spiked. I've had who have lost hours from drinking alone.

I hope you begin to feel better soon, and really do just try the help.
You never know what could happen!

Good luck, look after yourself.

Iz x