[Insert appropriate swearword here] *Triggering*
 

I've just been caught cutting at school again. My mother is being phoned again. I am so ****ed. Could do with a little support right now.

*Hugs*

Jelly, love, I know it's a hard thing to do, but could you try leaving your sharp things at home? It'll be ok. *More squishes*

I don't feel safe without them. The ironic thing is that the school sent me back to lessons later on and I still have blades/scissors on me.

Im sorry I dont have any advice Jelly, but I know exactly how you feel. When I was at college I couldnt go without having a blade on me. The only way I managed to cut less was putting it somewhere hard to get to, this meant that quite often I didnt have the time to cut when I wanted to because i'd have gotten caught. Maybe you could only take one with you and try not to use it? *Squish* Hope you're ok xx

*Cuddles you*

I'm sorry to hear that, I know it's awful when things like this happen. I understand what you mean about not feeling safe when you don't have them with you, and I'm not going to tell you to stop taking them. But like others have suggested, try not to use them/make them difficult to acces, etc? And is there any way you could try distracting yourself when you're at school? Even if it means telling a teacher or someone how you're feeling? Just that school isn't really a great place to be cutting yourself, especially if you might end up getting caught.

Have they called your mum yet? If so, how did it go? If they haven't yet, then good luck, I really hope everything goes okay. How do you think she's likely to react? Maybe use this as an opportunity to talk to her about how things really are, and get some support from her, if you feel you can. It will probably just be hard for her to hear, even if she has known about it before.

*Offers more hugs* You take care of yourself, here if you need someone to talk to or rant at or anything at all.

*cuddles*

Jenny, I'm sure it will be just fine. Honestly.
In fact, have they told her yet?
You never know... it may help you get more support, and may be on some benefit to you in the long run. Yes, it's scary, and no, I don't know your Mum, but things will be okay.

I haven't really got any different advice to the above, but just to let you know that I'm here for you about this, and to wish you luck.

If you get in a tricky time at school, is there anyone on hand that you can go and see, if need be?
How about taking less and less sharp objects into school with you daily, or perhaps take something else that would make you feel safe, but wouldn't cause so much damage?

Look after yourself, xx

Thanks for the replys everyone.

Mum got told, and was no doubt upset when I got home. It's not the first time it's happened and I think shes getting a bit fed up. I've been trying to keep a low profile since.

I still feel the need to take something with me. I often cut at school but don't get caught. This time I pretty much had to tell someone because I had cut worse than normal and scared myself and was really upset and shaking so they could tell something was up, and then noticed the blood dripping down my arm.

There are people at school that I could go speak to when I need to, but I often feel bad doing that because they have lots of other stuff to be doing, and already do more than enough for me.

*Offers cuddles*

I'm sorry your mum was upset, it's really horrible, I know the feeling all too well. Just remember it's only because she's worried and she cares, and everything. And it's not your fault, so try not to feel too guilty or anything. Maybe it's not so much that she's getting fed up, as she just doesn't know what to do or how to help you anymore. Do you think it would help at all to really talk things through with her, maybe after everyone's calmer? Just let her know how you're feeling, and if there's anything she can do that would help, even if it's just being there for you.

It's okay if you need to take something with you, I was in that position for a long time, and I know how terrifying it can feel to not at least have the option. But Rach's suggestion of taking something would cause less damage is a really good idea, if possible. And if you do continue to self harm in school, please just be safe and make sure that you keep everything clean, 'cos schools can be icky. And do tell someone if you ever need to, even if it isn't really convenient.

It is a good thing that there are people you could go and talk to. I can understand feeling bad about doing so, but it really is the best thing you could do. They are there to try and help when they can, and I'm sure they would much rather you went to see them, and kept yourself safe, than ended up hurting yourself or anything like that. Or is there even a friend you could talk to about it, sometimes that's enough?

Take care of yourself, sweetheart, stay safe.

Yeap...I recognise that too...the wholle mum being upset thing really bites. I have taken blades to school but never used them there...never been able to find the courage if that is the right word but yeah...it made me feel safer. Can you think of anything that's not dangerous that would make you feel safe...I dunno' what...hmmmm*thinks* ok...maybe like take a notebook and then when you feel you wnat to cut try going and writing your feelings down. Just a suggestion...probably a really bad one...sorry.

Sending you lots of love and here if you need support. xxxxx